urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12 You might not like what I have to say. mmm12 2010-03-19T20:50:33Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:149872 2010-03-19T20:49:05Z 2010-03-19T20:50:33Z The Format's B-side album is by far my favorite of the the three. You could tell the direction they were going in was pure greatness. Its such a shame it ended. With fun being a barely recognizable shadow of what the format was I find my self frequently coming back to this album. Heres one of my favorite songs from that album and some of my favorite lines from the song itself.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.last.fm/music/The+Format/_/For+You"><br />http://www.last.fm/music/The+Format/_/For+You</a><br /><br /><br />Princess cards she sends me, with her regards<br />Oh, barroom eyes shine vacancy<br />To see her you gotta look hard<br /><em><strong>Wounded deep in battle<br />I stand stuffed like some soldier undaunted<br />To her cheshire smile I'll stand on file<br />She's all I ever wanted</strong></em><br />But you let your blue walls get in the way of these facts<br />Honey, get your carpetbaggers off my back<br />You wouldn't even give me time to cover my tracks<br />You're saying, &quot;Here's your mirror and your ball and jack&quot;<br />But they're not what I came for<br />And I'm sure you see that too<br /><br />I came for you, for you, I came for you<br />But you did not need my urgency<br />I came for you, for you, I came for you<br />But your life was one long emergency<br />And the cloud line urges me, and my electric surges free<br /><br />Climb into my ambulance, your pulse is getting weak<br />Oh, reveal yourself all now to me girl<br />While you've got the chance to speak<br />'Cause they're waiting for you at Bellevue<br />With their oxygen masks<br />I could give it all to you now if only you could ask<br />But don't call for your surgeon even he says it's too late<br />It's not your lungs this time<br />It's your heart that holds your fate<br />Well don't give me money, honey, I don't want it back<br />You and your pony face and your union jack<br />Well take your local joker and teach him how to act<br />'Cause I swore I was never that way even when I really cracked<br /><strong><em>Didn't you think I knew that you were born with the power of a locomotive<br />Able to leap tall buildings in a single bound?<br />And your Chelsea suicide with no apparent motive<br />You could laugh and cry in a single sound</em></strong>, oh oh, oh oh<br /><br /><strong><em><u>And your strength is devastating in the face of all these odds<br /></u>Remember how I kept you waiting when it was my turn to be the god?</em></strong><br /><br />You were not quite half too proud when I found you broken on the beach<br />Oh, remember how I poured salt on your tongue and hung just out of reach?<br />And<strong><em><u> the band they played the homecoming theme as I caressed your cheek<br />Oh that ragged, jagged melody, she still clings to me like a leach</u></em></strong><br />But that medal you wore on your chest always got in the way<br />Like a little girl with a trophy so soft to buy her way<br />We were both hitchhikers but you had your ear tuned to the roar<br />Of some metal-tempered engine on that alien, distant shore<br /><u><em>And now you left to find a better reason than the one we were living for</em></u><br />And it's not that nursery mouth I came back for<br />It's not the way you're stretched out on the floor<br /><em>'Cause I've broken all your windows and I've rammed through all your doors</em><br /><u><em><strong>And who am I to tell you to lick my sore?</strong></em></u><br />And you should see that too<br /><br /><em>I came for you, for you, I came for you<br />But you did not need my urgency<br />I came for you, for you, I came for you<br />But your life was one long emergency<br />And the cloud line urges me, and my electric surges free</em> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:149658 2010-02-19T03:15:32Z 2010-02-19T16:32:51Z <p>So I was going through my live journal posts last nite when I should've been doing my 12 page paper and I realized that writing and hitching and moaning that I had done for two years straight lead to Alot of poetic and philosophical ideas that I just don't have like I used to.</p><p>I thought of three things mainly I'm not as upset as I used to be where I was miserable all the time and my only outlet was lj. So all of my creative kick were inspired by episodes of insufferable depression which lead to beautifully romantic poetry, which at the time I was completely ashamed that something so weak and fragile could come out of someone who thought they were strong and unbreakable don't know really where it cam from.</p><p>Secondly I really don't use lj as much nowadays if I have something to say I merely tweet or facebook my ideas to a larger audience however I am constricted by the less amount of characters I am Allowed to input, therefore my ideas have become smaller. Sometimes a good things it prohibits rambling which is nice. I'm starting to feel that I'm not reaching my potential no matter how lame or pathetic the writing is. It's good to me now.</p><p>Thirdly last nite some where inbetween page 7 and 8 of this emotions mood paper I have been writing and yet to have finished and it's due tomorrow. I typed into google what does the bible say about emotion. Although the bible never mentions the word emotion through any of it's text. It does go through the individual emotion such as joy anger fear etc. I came across a pslam which now escapes my memory but went something like god is close to the broken hearted and will save or help those in spirit. This plsam but a unique spin on what I thought of my creative juices. If god is closer to those in depression and since we are closer to god do we experience almost a inspiration of him through our writing which is meant to express our broken hearts. Basically I'm saying are we inspired by god in times of need to create something better.</p><p>Although I do feel better these days I have no need to write in such hopeless ways I have no need for that strong of an emotion to inspire me. It was just food for thought and I was enjoying the debate I was having with myself of what truly is the reason I have been unable or unwilling to write like I used to.<br /><br />Edit: I hope this dosnt sound too front runner-y spiritual cause I'm really not all that spiritual at all. </p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:149269 2010-02-18T01:32:29Z 2010-02-19T18:03:15Z Which song describes the mood you are in right now?<br />What Happened to the Sands - Pas/Cal<br /><br /><br />Which song describes the mood you are usually in?<br />Fuck The System - System of a Down<br /><br /><br />Which song describes your personality?<br />Ok - Holly Conlan<br /><br /><br />Which song describes the way you think about hate?<br />Is There a Way Out - The Get up Kids<br /><br /><br />Which song explains the way you think about love?<br />Inches and Falling - The Format<br /><br /><br />Which song best describes evil?<br />The War Criminal Rises and Speaks - The Okkervil River<br /><br /><br />Which song best describes good?<br />Torches Together - mewithoutYou<br /><br /><br />Which song best describers the way of the world?<br />The Kids Dont Stand a Chance - Vampire Weekend<br /><br /><br />What would you sing to your soulmate right now?<br />Never - Rilo Kiley<br /><br /><br />Which song best describes loneliness?<br />Nights Like These - Lucero<br /><br /><br />Which song best describes happiness?<br />You Cant Hurry Love - The Supremes<br /><br /><br />Which song best represents you?<br />A Better Son/Daughter - Rilo Kiley<br /><br /><br />Which song describes your childhood?<br />Time Turned Fragile - Motion City Soundtrack<br /><br /><br />Which song describes your future children?<br />Blanket and Crib - Okkervil River<br /><br /><br />Which song most remind's you of your friends?<br />L.G. FUAD Motion City Soundtrack<br /><br /><br />Which song would be played at your wedding?<br />Hoppipolla - Sigur Ros<br /><br /><br />Which song describes yourself in the future?<br />Career Pay - The Format<br /><br /><br />Which song describes yourself in the past?<br />A little less sixteen candles, a little more touch me - Fall Out Boy<br /><br /><br />Which song would be appropriate for your first date?<br />She Dosnt Get It - The Format<br /><br /><br />Which song would best describe your first time having sex?<br />When We Escape - Minus The Bear<br /><br /><br />Which song would describe your taste in the opposite sex?<br />Broken Box - Queens of The Stone Age<br /><br /><br />Which song best describes your family in general?<br />Oh, La - Ra Ra Riot<br /><br /><br />Which song best describes your school?<br />9mm and Three Piece Suit - Streetlight Manifesto<br /><br /><br />Which song best describes your public personality?<br />Live Forever - Oasis<br /><br />Which song best describes your private personality?<br />Dog Problems - The Format<br /><br />Your Life: The Soundtrack<br /><br />Opening credits: Keep Fishin' - Weezer<br />Waking up: Your Gunna Make It - Alvin and The Pushbacks<br />Average day: Drops In the River - Fleet Foxes<br />Love scene: You Really Got a Hold on Me - She and Him<br />Fight scene: They Are Night Zombies - Sufjan Stevens<br />Breaking up: Skinny Love - Bon Iver<br />Life's okay: Pachua Sunrise - Minus The Bear<br />Driving: The Deep South - The Promise Ring<br />Learning a lesson: I Stand Corrected - Vampire Weekend<br />Deep thought: Drink til Were Gone - Lucero<br />Partying: Keep It Going Louder - Major Lazer<br />Best Day of Your Life: With Arms Outstretched - Rilo Kiley<br />Regretting: A Stone - Okkervil River<br />Long night alone: Nights Like These - Lucero<br />Death scene: Dying Is Fine - Ra Ra Riot<br />Closing credits: Epic Last Song - Does it Offend You, Yeah? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:149178 2010-02-03T07:20:21Z 2010-02-03T07:20:21Z <lj-embed id="80" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:148357 2010-01-20T01:48:12Z 2010-01-20T01:48:12Z <lj-embed id="79" /><br /><br />and by "like this" I mean like Superman. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:148153 2010-01-17T20:38:01Z 2010-01-17T20:38:01Z Embarrassed beyond all reason.<br /><br />For things I did not mean to say.<br /><br />Fuck. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:147052 2010-01-05T00:00:21Z 2010-01-05T00:00:21Z <lj-embed id="78" /><br /><br />Dear god, I'm trying hard to reach you<br />Dear god, I see your face in all I do<br />Sometimes its so hard to believe in<br />Good god I know you have your reasons<br /><br />Dear god I see you move the mountains<br />Dear god I see you moving trees<br />Sometimes its nothing to believe in<br />Sometimes its everything I see<br /><br />Well Ive been thinking about,<br />And Ive been breaking it down without an answer<br />I know Im thinking aloud but if your loves<br />Still around why do we suffer?<br />Why do we suffer?<br /><br />Dear god, I wish that I could touch you<br /><strong><u><em>How strange sometimes I feel I almost do<br />And then I'm back behind the glass again.<br />Oh god what keeps you out it keeps me in</em></u></strong><br /><br />Well Ive been thinking about,<br />And Ive been breaking down without an answer<br />I know Im thinking aloud but if your loves<br />Still around why do we suffer?<br />Why do we suffer? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:146735 2009-12-23T21:50:10Z 2009-12-23T21:50:10Z "Since nothing can be percived but through the senses and since all individuals sense and therefore perceive things differently. There is no absolute truth only relative truth." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:146168 2009-12-16T20:35:42Z 2009-12-16T20:36:07Z <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wyodrBOoHPo">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wyodrBOoHPo</a><br /><br />This is me in a nutshell.<br /><br /><lj-embed id="77" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:145904 2009-12-14T20:12:37Z 2009-12-14T20:12:37Z Looking through the History of Religion… some of the most horrible things in humanity have been for God. Of all my questions of faith none are more powerful than looking backwards. The very teachings we were left with have been tainted by Men and by men I literally mean Men, not woman that have tainted the books of the bible. They have chosen to denounce certain books as oppose to other ones for the mere advantage the books gave in helping to teach their message. Why are we (Roman Catholics) prohibited from learning the books of other saints besides those of Luke, Matthew, John, and Mark? The very fact that throughout history religious leaders of been corrupt, countless popes and priests. And it’s not a matter of switching to something else. Islam, Muhammad this great spiritual leader found it necessary to conquer the Middle East and convert its people by force. Shiites and Sunni’s have gone to war over a matter of leadership, as if that has anything to do with their faith to God. Protestants and Catholics have gone to war with each other over the Nicene Creed, because they couldn’t agree on the order of who came first God, Jesus, or the Holy Ghost. I ask over something that’s suppose to unite people why is there so much injustice that it disgust me in ways that I only thought of mass murders like Bundy, Hussein, Bin Laden. I look further into all these rules and regulation necessary to achieve an after-life. It all looks like bullshit to me. The only parts I still wish to follow at this point is that Ten Commandments, it makes the most common sense.<br /><br />I want a religion based on the love of God, a merciful god, not a God who’ll see me rot in purgatory for not saying the correct amount of Hail Mary’s. In the book of Thomas there’s a passage that says in Heaven if a soul that exist there wishes a soul from earth to ascend to Heaven they can if the soul wants them to. Imagine where all you had to do to get into Heaven is be nice to one another, than someone can just vouch for you at the door. There wouldn’t be a need for an institution at all, just kindness to one another. <br /><br />I wonder if you stack up all the death’s that have died in the name of religion, how would it stack against cancer, aids, plagues, natural deaths, drug related deaths. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:145061 2009-11-30T02:25:41Z 2009-11-30T02:25:41Z Dr. Dog <lj-embed id="75" /><br /><br /><lj-embed id="76" /><br /><br />Dr. Dog^ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:144745 2009-11-25T18:59:18Z 2009-11-25T18:59:18Z Rilo Kiley <a href="http://popup.lala.com/popup/360569458055928510">http://popup.lala.com/popup/360569458055928510</a><br /><br /><font size="1" face="Verdana" color="#999999"><br /><a href="http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&amp;videoid=11246824" style="">Rilo Kiley Portions For Foxes</a><br /><lj-embed id="74" /><br /><a href="http://www.myspace.com/cubekcatcafe" style="">cube da kcat </a> | <a href="http://vids.myspace.com" style="">MySpace Video</a></font><br /><br />There's blood in my mouth<br />Because <em>I've been biting my tongue all week</em><br />I keep on talking trash but I never say anything<br />And the talking leads to touching<br />And the touching leads to sex<br />And then there is no mystery left<br /><br />And it's bad news<br />Baby, I'm bad news<br />I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news<br /><br />I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you<br />But<em> just being around you offers me another form of relief</em><br />When the loneliness leads to bad dreams<br />And the bad dreams lead me to calling you<br />And I call you and say, &quot;C'MERE!&quot;<br /><br />And it's bad news<br />Baby, I'm bad news<br />I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news<br /><br />And it's bad news<br />Baby, it's bad news<br />It's just bad news, bad news, bad news<br /><br /><em><strong>Because you're just damage control<br />For a walking corpse like me<br />Like you</strong></em><br /><br />Because we'll all be<br />Portions for foxes<br />Yeah, we'll all be<br />Portions for foxes<br /><br />There's a pretty young thing in front of you<br />And she's real pretty and she's real into you<br />And then she's sleeping inside of you<br />And the talking leads to touching<br />And the touching leads to sex<br />And then <u><strong>there is no mystery left</strong></u><br /><br />And it's bad news<br /><em>I don't blame you<br />I do the same thing</em><br />I get lonely too<br /><br />And you're bad news<br />My friends tell me to leave you<br />That you're bad news, bad news, bad news<br /><br /><u><em><strong>You're bad news</strong></em></u><br />Baby, you're bad news<br />And you're bad news<br />Baby, you're bad news<br />And you're bad news<br /><u><strong><em>I don't care, I like you</em></strong></u><br />And you're bad news<br />I don't care, I like you<br />I like you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:144605 2009-11-23T20:45:37Z 2009-11-23T20:45:54Z <lj-embed id="73" /><br /><br />I really wish the audience members of Maurey were present so the whole crowd could jeer and Cheer in the way I would've deemed appropriate. Of the comments that would be heard here would be a few of my favorite.<br /><br />"Awwww helllll nah he didn't"<br />"Bitch you got played, take yor' raggedy ass out of dat chair"<br />"WHAT WHAT!?!"<br />"Ownedddd"<br />"Chirp Chirp!" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:144175 2009-11-23T17:25:59Z 2009-11-23T17:25:59Z I wish I was in the band the proclaimers<br /><br /><lj-embed id="72" /><br /><br />I wish I could write like a 400 year old poet.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.luminarium.org/sevenlit/marvell/soulbody.htm">http://www.luminarium.org/sevenlit/marvell/soulbody.htm</a><br /><br />I wish I could draw like William Schaff<br /><br /><br /><img src="http://farm1.static.flickr.com/25/58637295_e84362a31a_m.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:143948 2009-11-16T19:32:06Z 2009-11-16T19:32:06Z When did I get so undependable. I thought I fixed this. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:143713 2009-11-16T01:40:45Z 2009-11-16T01:40:45Z <lj-embed id="71" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:143524 2009-11-11T23:45:41Z 2009-11-12T00:08:18Z I'm not bitter, I'm just past that point in my life. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:143241 2009-11-11T15:56:38Z 2009-11-11T15:56:38Z Damien Rice I recently just watched a movie called "Visioneers" starring Zach Galfinakas, Judy Greer, and Mia Maestro. Rarely do I identify with a movie so deeply. I was curious if this would be like all of Zach's other movies... ridiculous and hilarious. This movie was both of those things but in a completly different fashion. One which I did not expect from the "Hang-Over" star. Like Will Ferrel's "Stranger Than Fiction" this gives us a different approach of the actor. Although Zach does seem to get alittle bit of himself in their(The wife-fight, make-out scene). It's fresh and if your willing, a completely enjoyable experience. The message is well-worth it.<br /><br />Zach plays George Washington, a typical office worker who job is Visoneer for the most profitable company ever to exist, Jeffers Corp. Zach's world has some problems, people are com-busting (exploding) by the 1,000s but it's not all bad when you live in the "perfect" world. He has a house, a kid, a wife (Judy Greer), a boat, etc. It's seemingly a suburban paradise as long as your a cog for Jeffers Corp. Zach's character seems to be suffering symptoms of exploding. His worry and fear lead you to wonder if he really will.<br /><br />The movie has a really good commentary of our own culture. Working boring jobs, using things such as the media to distract us from our own unhappiness. The way they greet each other is by giving the middle finger salute which is hilarious at first. Its more than just a gag its the director and writer's way of saying "Fuck You". Fuck You to big business, fuck you to dry boring lives, fuck you to "plastic" cookie cutter wives, etc. It gets its message across most importantly at the climax (will he do it, wont he do it) and at the end your left with something to dwell on. If your really in a rut you she see this movie. At the very least you'll hopefully pick something out of it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:142883 2009-11-11T02:01:32Z 2009-11-11T02:15:30Z The truth is I'm afraid of all the people I've never met. I dont fear my enemies because those people. I know who they are. I can understand their worth and weight on me which is nothing. But the thing I'm more afraid of the people who will be my enemies in the future. The people who I will no longer call brother or sister. I'm afraid of my soon to be class mates, my peers, Im afraid of my teachers. Im afraid of my own expectations. I'm afraid of not being able to enjoy my life because of money. I'm afraid of trying my best and being told no that i am not good enough. Im afraid of the police. Im afraid of the government. Im not afraid of what they think of me. I'm afraid of what they'll do to me. They'll poke and they'll prod but that's better than the alternative which is loneliness. No one wants that. I'd rather be hated than forgotten. Not that I want to be hated. I think I wont be alone, I got that covered cause I have friends. But I than I think what I could do to loose them and that's scary. It's been years yet still I fear that someone dear will leave me here behind forever. <br /><br />I dont think God graced my conscious with clarity. Or at least enough to see straight ahead instead of looking side to side trying to catch every detail to make sense of it all. Or even worse this soul only used to look behind but I'm working on that and thats going away. That forces me to realize I'm improving. I'm a better man than who I was. Im not slowed down as much as I used to. I just dont know what I need to remove all these distractions. When will it become apparent to me that if I just stuck my ass in the present I will be able to cope with the later and the past. Instead of looking behind or at the scenery to my left and right. <br /><br />I think to myself that scenery, the journey itself is what I should be paying attention to. But if its only slowing me from my goal than what is the point? Side to side, no more behind, but cant seem to angle towards the finish line. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:142770 2009-11-06T01:10:34Z 2009-11-06T01:10:34Z My bad days have me out-numbered<br />Though full of wit, spirit, and lumber<br />Even after nights of dedicated slumber<br />Through breakfast to dinner, all with cumber<br />These bad days have me out-numbered urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:142499 2009-10-23T00:47:54Z 2009-10-23T00:53:56Z Streetlight Manifesto <u><em><strong>That is the life forms defeat. If we give into emotions it only becomes proof of our inability to control them.</strong></em></u><br /><br />I surprisingly read that in a comic I read called Bleach. I agree more or less even though I'ma wear it on my sleeve kinda guy.^<br /><br />&quot;Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me<br />and its been years yet still I fear that someday they'll desert me<br />and its hard I know when its time to stand alone and no one understands you.&quot;<br /><br />Been stuck in my head all day^ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:141629 2009-10-14T21:20:25Z 2009-10-14T21:20:25Z Okkervil River &quot;I don't want to hear you say it shouldn't really be this way<br /><strong><em>'Cause I like this way just fine</em></strong><br />'Cause there's nothing quite like the blinding light<br />That curtains cast aside<br />And no attempt is made to explain away<br />The things that really, really, really, really, really are behind&quot;<br />-Okkervil River<br /><br /><br /><lj-embed id="70" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:141541 2009-10-12T18:05:40Z 2009-10-12T18:06:59Z Streetlight Manifesto Can we try and set up some sort of activity on wed. or thurs. nite? Basketball was fun lets try that again.<br /><br />"Well you say your life's a bore, and i can't quite disagree.<br />If you judge your life by the pieces of shit that inhabit your T.V.<br />Because they stand so proud, and they talk so loud<br />and every other word is a lie I've found.<br />That everyone who is anyone is a waste of time,<br />A waste of time!"<br />-Streetlight Manifesto urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:141193 2009-10-05T20:42:24Z 2009-10-05T20:42:24Z Streetlight Manifesto "Fool, you're a tool, a sheep<br />and it's obvious to everyone but company you keep<br />and don't you squint at me because your childhood was the pits<br />every single one of us have trodden through our shit<br />oh, and i know you're shrewd<br />because i smell it on your clothes<br />it's in everything you do."<br /><br /><lj-embed id="69" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mmm12:141028 2009-10-01T23:19:26Z 2009-10-01T23:19:26Z <a href="http://medicmediablog.com/wordpress/">http://medicmediablog.com/wordpress/</a> talked about my favorite lyricist, sheff, pierre, reuss, and snider.